31st-1st Hallucinations

Two years ago, when I used to think of myself, I never saw myself the person I am now. I don't know if I'm a better or a worse person, or if the person I wanted to be is the person I am now, or if the person I wanted to be is the person I should be.

Today, I look at the person I am now and I see shattered, broken, confused pieces, trying to get together but so disfigured that they do not know if they can fit together anymore. Their edges have worn off that they do not match each other!

I can't see a person two years from now, I don't know if I could, what should I see!

All I know now is that there is a track, drawn or being drawn, it doesn't matter. There is just a track and a plan that each is following yet doesn't recognized, and doesn't know where it leads!

Goddess of Beauty, Petrifying!

A word creates a world in my imagination but then its flare gets frozen, then struck, then broken, then diminished in my oblivious mind!

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Dare not look me in the eye

For they are my point of strength

And dare not not look at me as I walk

On this dreadful ground, gracefully

Dare not watch me as I wash-up

In the wide, endless sea

And get mesmerized by my beauty

Capturing your evil sneak

Can you resist beauty when you see it?

Perfection, finally attained?

Can you contain your emotions?

And chain your sense of curiosity?!

Let me 

Tell you, 

You cannot!

They say I am a monstrous gorgon

Ugly, with snakes' head and death

Flaring from my eyes.

They are wrong!

I’m a Goddess of Beauty, Petrifying!

I sense perfection, 

I act to it

I immortalize it 

I turn it into a masterpiece;

A timeless existence!

Dare you say that I kill people?

Turn them into stone

When I capture their eternal grace

In a sculpture of white marble?

Let me 

Tell you,

You cannot!

It might look to you as a chaos

What looks like order to me

Nothing is ever out of place

Nothing can ever be!

My blue snakes, sizzling and snaring

Looking for what brings them life

They catch beauty at first sight 

And then beauty realizes its beauty

Reflected in my sky blue eyes!

Fairness gets me mesmerized

My senses get heightened

My snakes’ blue scales are made of glass

That reflect my bewilderment

The scales reflect the beauty I capture

Beauty capture its beauty and perfection

It is not me who marbleize them into statues

Their beauty petrify them!

I’m only their Goddess!

A Goddess of Beauty, Petrified!

Under Their Skin (Demons of The Night X)

Keep the lights on

It scares them

Keep an eye on your footsteps

And another ahead

Run with light feet

Don’t look behind you

Push the ground away

As you try to escape them

Keep the tapes running

And the voice recorders

Maximize the amplifiers

They scare them off

Don’t keep the white noise playing

In the background as you sleep

It invites them 

To tamper with your dreams

Keep your eyes on your path

As you run away

Pushing down the ground

As it tries to grab your feet 

Don’t pause your running

Don’t close your eyes

Or you will get sucked

In the mud beneath

Keep running until you bleed

And the mud turns red

And the trucks of the trees

Keep the lights roaring

And your thoughts swindling

Them into belief that they got you 

Under their skin

To Make You Feel My Love

Disclaimer: This piece of writing might be inappropriate for audience below 18

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I wanna make love to you until it feels safe to be naked in front of you.

I wanna make love to you until it feels OK that you can see every inch of my body.

I wanna make love to you until I’m breathless and I can’t recognize the universe around me because I’m so damned happy that my eyes are tearing in joy and confusion.

I wanna make love to you until it feels alright that someone can see my scars and love and attend to them better than I used to do.

I wanna make love to you until we become undone, losing each other in one another and it becomes hard to differentiate between who is who.

I wanna make love to you until our bodies collide, as our souls collide and we become one.

I wanna make love to you until our time is over, our bodies are over, and our souls are all what remain, floating in the realm of truth.

I wanna make love to you until I feel that I conveyed the amount of love I have for you, even though I doubt I can ever do!