Friday, 7 October 2016

My Planet’s Colours over the Moon

I’m over the moon
Watching the various colours of my planet as they change and intertwine
I’m over the moon
As my feet sink in deep pitches of ash and blood
Blood?! What blood?!
I’m over the moon…

Here comes the hail
Tiny snow needles puncturing my skin, where my nerve buds are active the most
I’m set on fire, by the electrifying sensation screeching down my chords
Eating at my bones
I scream so loudly, terrifyingly
My voice is devoured by the vast, black, empty, space

Here come the waves
Crashing at my spine
I forcibly kneel, tilting my head, fracturing my back
My immobility consumes me, and the pain
I’m over the moon
Watching the various colours of my planet as they change and melt together

My eyes are fighting for vision across my muddy tears
Mixing with my blood, sweat, ash, skin, and fear
My lungs try not to collapse, inhaling the molecules of destruction oppressing me
As I’m over the moon
Watching the colours of my planet as they lose their properties in each other
Dispersing into an unknown


Saturday, 24 September 2016

Seas

Winds saturated with iodine
Sticky air, blowing wild
Ebb and Tide
Taking my breath away, filling me back in

I feel the humidity,
The stickiness, on my skin
Clinging, like those memories,
A howling sea

The stinging pain
Where my heart lies
Where my chest rises and falls
As my lungs inflate and deflate

The waves come at me
Streaming, steaming, stabbing, screaming
Pushing me under, raising me high above
As I strive to swim across, failing and succeeding

Those memories
I close my eyes, my dreams, to the endless sea
The motion still vivid, ebbs and tides
The tears behind my lids

"Men rise and fall like the winter wheat"
And as these seas are my witnesses
I have risen as I have fallen

Saturday, 6 August 2016

Incinerated

Squeeze my heart, turning into stone
Leave your burning handprint on my chest
The glowing fire incinerating me from within
I’m combusting into flames

You said you will protect me
Love me and cherish me
You asked me to open up
To start loving again

I know I’m sinful
Always angry, always loud
Disgraceful at times
But you accepted me, faulty and foul

You said you will be there
You said you will stand by me
You said and you said
And at a point, I chose to believe

I said it once, I’m saying it again
You’re a man, you’ll love and you’ll love
And you’ll destroy whatever left.
It's the simple truths that men lie 

My bones are liquefying
My eyes are turning white
My breath is snatched violently from my lungs
I’m losing myself to the devouring pain

My eyes are now chocking on their burning tears
Red lava rivers
I’m suffocating, grabbing at my throat for air, 
Dry and cracking

I’m retreating to the road I initially chose
The path I said I ought to take
Riding alone with my arts and rhythms
Finding solace in the misty mountain’s rocks

Let the cold wash over me
Hailing me down with biting snow
Maybe it will be more gentle on me
Saving me from my burning soul

Thursday, 30 June 2016

Satan’s Blood (Demons of The Night XII)

Soft, sleek, black, silky strands of hair
Falling down his forehead
Covering his neck line
Contemplating his clear, fair skin

Wide almond eyes, black as night
Long lashes, thick
Lining their outline in precision
Glistening under the pale lights

Small nose, 
Rosy lips
A face carved in perfection
Most beautiful

A curse swarming beneath his skin
Dark poison 
Black ink streaming in his veins
Drawing vicious hollowness 

“You’re born to breed, 
My line should proceed, 
My blood should be cleansed, 
A ritual you can’t evade”

The poison spread
Bad blood,
Calling for new blood, new life
A new flesh, an infestation

His heartbeats raced with mine
Empathy more than love
Love stronger than empathy
An inhuman attraction; bestiality 

Our eyes locked on each other
We’re seeing through one other
Our hearts slamming against their cages vigorously
As our bodies clasped so tight

THE RITUAL SHALL NOW BEGIN

I lost myself to his misery
He lost himself in my purity

More passionately than poisonously
More poisonously than cursed
More cursed than blindingly dark
Darker than any force that would tear us apart

It’s warmer than any of us has ever felt
All the coldness seeping out of our bones
The ice that has racked our souls
Slowly melting in disclosure

More passionately than poisonously
More tenderly than stiffly
More yearningly than lustfully
More intimately than forcibly

The storm we wreaked is now going dormant
We reached deep depths beyond getting lost
More lost than we can ever be saved
More saved that we can never be lost

A new child is born
The circle will be going on
We broke the lurking evil
Only to have it reforged

The guilt will be inscribed in our every breath 
As much as this moment can’t reced in memory
A bond is moulded, love is founded
Only to be diminished with a new enchantment

A new ritual will be called upon
New innocent life, gone
Blood for blood and life for life 
A Satan will always rise

Sunday, 5 June 2016

Waking Up the Dead

It all came back to me, crushing me with exasperating nostalgia. If it was the right thing to do, it surely doesn’t feel like it. Apparently I wanted to do that; I wanted to do it for so long that now I can’t even remember why I wanted to do it. It hurts so much. He was once a friend; a great friend even with all the drama, the nagging, and all the things that I hated about him. He was also my fix, my own OD, and I was addicted to his substance abuse. It went so bad in the past, me being so nagging, he being so broken and overwhelmed, me falling in love with his friend and nearly getting engaged to him. It was flooding us all; we were drowning under our incomprehension of our own desires and needs. The consummation was eating at us, slowly, happily, and quietly that we didn’t even realize it until it was too late. It was too late that all of our bonds were broken, all of our bridges burned down. I was on one side of the mountain, while they were on the other side of the valley, so far apart that we couldn't even see one another, feel one another, or understand what we were going through. Such desperate separation acted like a poison burning through the veins of our relationship. It was dying and failing rapidly and horribly. The antidote was unknown at the time, and remains unknown to this day. Trying to clear waters, after more than a year of torturing silence, feels like digging out the dead corpse of our lost relationship and trying to do CPR, even though CPR attempts have failed before calling out the time of death. It doesn’t even stop here. In desperation, I don’t stop at the CPR failure, I try to force life into the cold dead by all means possible that I am now creating Frankenstein’s monster. Now I am doing as Frankenstein did, he was so excited towards the results of his experiments that he has forgotten what the consequences might be, creating an overwhelming creature that is so lost in emotional turmoil and fragments of past lives of two or more people who are long dead and gone. Same inputs and givens, being examined through the same scope and used in the same way, give the same result. If it went any further than what it has gone already, if any further attempts were made to try firing life through our death, I will be creating the monster that Frankenstein was so scared of and the fire of this alleged spark of life will back fire at us all. It will devour all of what we had left of good memories, whether fading or vivid with colors and scents. Some relationships are better left dead, with no resolution or reconciliation. Don’t bring out the dead if it has already been gone for so long that now its life will be more disrupting and destructive than the beauty it had during its lifetime. 

Monday, 30 May 2016

If Darkness Comes

Stars crossed
Failed linearity
A hope lost, for unity
Perishing dreams
In difficulties
Desperation

A full moon’s light breaks through
Echoing in the black sky
Dimming our dispirited half-moons 

Guided by the wise full moon,
Our stars perfectly align
Forming a distinct constellation

A perfect sun rises
As our consumed suns burn out
Life commences
As our separation end
Lighting up our new world

If you lose your path to me
If you lose faith along the way
Look for our sun at day,
For our moon if night prevails
You will find me waiting for you
Hiding in the sun
If darkness comes



Sunday, 15 May 2016

In Another World

In another world 
A one we seek everyday
The sun will shine on both you and me
Shining on our dormant dreams
Saving us from falling off the brink

We’re standing so tall
Fighting so hard
With no reason to hide
No reason to be scared
No demons creeping
No fears kicking in

It’s a colorful plane
A bright horizon
Of happy aroura colors
Of happy thoughts and warm love

We have each other
We got our backs
We are standing together till the end

It is another world
A one we see everyday
Deep down in our hearts
We know we'll reach it someday
Breaking through the ails
Through the chuckles and the chains
The sun will shine again 
For both, you and me

Westlife_Another World