أتعلمين يا صديقتي...؟

Co-author: Sarah Ra'afat

هل تعلمين يا صديقتى انه ليس لدي سواكِ
وان الحياه لا تساوى فرحة بدونك
ولا بسمه لا اشاركها معك!
هل تعلمين يا صديقتي أن أحزاني لا نهاية لها
إلا حين أشاركها معكِ!
هل تعلمين يا صديقتى كم أحبكِ
وكم اتمنى ان يمر بنا العمر و انتي معى!
هل تعلمين انك اعَدتي إلَّي الحياة
وأن هناك اشخاص تستحق ان نحيا فقط من اجلِهم!
هل تعلمينَ يا صديقتي كم اعتَمِدُ عليكي؟!
وأني اشعُر بالتوهان فى البعد عنكِ!
هل تعلمينَ يا صديقتي أنكِ لستِ صديقتي!
فانتِ حبيبتي و توأمت روحي و رفيقة وجدانى و أنيسَتي في وِحدَتي
هل تعلمين انك انتي انا...وانا انتِ!
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نعم يا صديقتي، اعلم بمقداري لديكِ
اعلم بأنَّ رفقاء طريق و على نفس الخطا نسير،
متبعين نفس النهج
قد وجدنا الامان معا، و الراحة في حديثنا و مناجاة كل منا للآخر
فأنا استمد قوتي منكي و ارى نفسي فيكي و انتي ترين نفسك في
إني اعلم ما يدور بِخُلدِك و ما لا تبدين
فنحن نتشارك الأكنة، و نفس التدبير اللعين
فانتي تعلمين ما يدور برأسي و انا اعلم فيما تفكرين
فقد تعددت الاجساد و لكننا نتشارك نفس العشق و اليقين
فأنا قد وجدت نفسي فيكي و انتي قد وجدتِ نفسك في
فأنا انتِ و انتِ أنا و سنجتمع و لو بعد حين

يا مالِكي

دعني اغرق بين ذراعيك و احتمي من كل هموم حياتي

احتضني و احتضن مصيري بين يديك

انسِني الماضي و الآتي 

أنت حاضري، محياي و مماتي

اغرقني في عشقك و اكتنفني في مملكتك

واجعلني رفيقَتُك، عشيقَتُك، سكنِك

اجعلني يا قلبي حبُك الاول و الاخير

اشعِرني بعطفك في كل لحظة

فمثلما في عشقك انا اسيرة، في عشقي كن اسير

امحو كل ذنوب ماضيّ 

واكتب بحنانك قصة عشقي الأبية

كن مَلِكي، رَفِيقي، عَشِيقي، كل ما لَدي

فمن اجلك قد نسيت كل ما كنت ابغِ

وسَلَّمتُ لك رُوحي و اغمضت في كنفك عَينَي

فقد امنت بوجودِك و عِشقَك لي

وايقنت اني احبك و ليس بيدي خَيار

فليس لحبك عندي بديل

انت انسيتني قوتي و غلظتي فكفلّتني

فتركت لإيماني بك سلاحي و حربتي

ومضيت لا ابالي بعظمة قدرتي

على المراوغة و الصيد و القتل البارد

وانسيتني يا مَلِكي قدرتي على تجنب 

أنوثتي و مشاعري و كياني

ففقدت في عينيك قواي يا آسِري

ونسيت انني ربة الصيد و اني دهاء ماكر

فاعشقني يا عزيزي كيفما يَعشَق الأحِبة

فقد مضيت على خطاك من اجل حبي لك الدائم، الدامي

Dark and Light

Half shadowed by the light

And half soaking in the dark

She’s just a flower standing

On the edge between black and white

Half combating against the barrier;

That wall standing, between her and the sun

While the other half is disappearing

In the darkness devouring her side

She’s struggling, stuck

In that physical restriction that man creates

To chain her indoors

And enjoy her fragrance

She is hiding, snooping
She doesn't know what is there
The light is bright, blinding
But the dark is all she's ever tasted

Leaning towards change;
Towards her unknown
She's scared
But still she's trying to win this game

I am sure if she can crawl

She would seek that light that has befallen

The interior of that place except on her

I’m sure she won’t hesitate, she’ll fight her fears

She’s just a flower standing

Between black and white

She is drowning in this darkness

Yet fighting for the light

ارحل

Still talking like a leader

Still standing full of himself

You can’t tell if it’s idiocy

Or he is seriously mentally ill

His speeches are so hectic

Like written on his way back from hell

He talks of his legitimacy

While the streets scream and yell

“Legitimacy”, “democracy”, 

I’m the savior, their protector

Oh you got my heart so broken

How can you be so blind?!

How can’t you see?!
ارحل، ارحل، امشي، امشي 

انت ازاي كده مبتفهمشي

Stop calling for legitimacy 

Because your alleged one is withdrawn

احنا الشعب، قلنا، هتفنا

مش عايزينك، و بصوتنا صرخنا

لو كلنا كده مش عجبينك

و انت نايم راضي ضميرك

افضل و احكم و ارفع جبينك

و انزل واجه شعبك، و افتح قميصك

احنا الشعب اللي قال كلمته

ارحل الى دولة النسيان

Fragile

An hourglass, grand and shining

When the sun meets its glass

On four wooden pillars it’s standing,

Made of black ebony

Its glass is frail; cracking up

Withstanding ninety million grains of sand

That are getting heated up

And pressured to fit on the other side of down

They are stuck in transition

Some broke to the other ground

Whilst the others got suspended; 
Fighting gravity where they stand

The hourglass holds a mystery

A spell binding its fragile glass together

Its ebony pillars on which it’s standing

Got broken, yet still attached to one another

From time to time the hourglass is flipped

And the hour sometimes passes

But at others, the sand never slips

It’s an unresolved mystery of the grains 
That never flow through the narrow passage

And when the sand is kept in; trapped,

The glass gets another crack

It’s all in the glass and its spell

Standing up high in the strike of the sun

The hourglass now is flipped again

And all the grains are gradually slipping

From this narrow passage, to the other side

Seeking breath, and the shine of light

The glass is fragile and the ebony is breaking

But the spell won’t get any shaken

The ebony will stand and the glass will endure

The scream of the Egyptians calling “FREEDOM”

So as frail as it is, and as broken as it stands

The hourglass stands stiff, and away escapes the sand

From sterility and confinement

To a break of light in a vast, green land

There is still tomorrow, there is still a path

As long as the glass is resisting and the sand knows its way

There will still be tomorrow, there will still be hope

As long as the hourglass flips, and the ebony stands tall

#Tamaroud

#30 June

Ambivalent Death

So as the owl soars, seizing the blue moon

Whose white hail is covered by death in this gloom

The guardians of doom are in their black cloaks

Covering them from their heads to their toes

Their black is shadowed by the white of a new world

As that candle in her hand goes out of light

It was just burning, you can still see its smoke

Flying away with the wind, that only kills its flame

There is no certainty, the colours are weaved

Into each other, you can't tell despair from hope

But there is serenity in her face; a kind of surrender

As that expression on the face of “Lady of Shallot”

And as death creeps our existence,

Comforting her, it embraces her ambivalence

Two skulls in black with two hands that I can see

One tapping on her shoulder and one reaching for her withered life

They take her by the hand through the path of peace

After a life only twisted, crucified by the lack of tranquillity

And one eye that sees through this rock with holes

A new path, a new turn, another life it beholds

The darkness of the guardians devour her blues slowly

As all the colours melt in each other, marking a sea of misery

Ending with the hail of a blue moon prevailing in this scenery

With a white owl seizing the mystery the painting tells

The Ending of the "Zain" Phase (Goodbye Friend Across the Distant Land)

Without a name

Without a face

Without emotions

That I can erase

With pain and bitterness

In ever action he takes

The one who fixed me

Sunk deep in his disgrace

An unknown name

An unknown identity

Unknown features

An unsolved mystery

We stumbled upon each other

And we both repaired

The broken treasures

In one another

But here it ends

Here it's over

Here I say goodbye

Unwillingly

For his back, he's turned over

We were great friends

But here I say goodbye my friend

Across the distant land

And I know he will be waving back

Saying goodbye to the girl

He never met

Link: To My First Anonymous Friend "Zain"