Love Love, Love Life (Stream of Thought 10)

While trying opening my notebook to study, which is something I only do when the exams are approaching and I do it because I have to, I found this written somewhere at the end of my notebook: ““I want you more than I should.” This is actually way ridiculous, very ridiculous indeed. I mean, have you actually wanted someone that much!!! The idea is just disgusting and pathetic. Love is pathetic; it’s all pathetic, very pathetic.”

This makes me wonder, how come I have written something like that. Is it possible that someone would write something and give it a piece of his mind and his soul and thus his life and existence then forget about it and totally abhor that the idea even occurred to him! I can’t believe that for a split of a second I ever thought of love as pathetic; it can’t be. Love steers life, it directs it. Now it’s crazy because I sound like my alleged President but seriously, it is the fuel of life! With no love there would be no life, no creativity, no existence, even no God!

Let’s just think about it. If God doesn’t love us, why did he create us?! Ok, another one; if God loves us, why did he create us to suffer?! Ok, now another thing, do you wish if God has never created you?! I can answer that last one; at a point of my life, yes I wished if God has never created me, yes, but turning back to see when that was…OH, yes I remember, I was six. I thought my parents loved my sister more than they loved me and I thought my sister was prettier than me because she had nice hair will mine was up in the air!!! Going back to the first question, if God doesn’t love us, why did he create us?! God loves us, otherwise he wouldn’t have bothered sending us prophets who enlighten our way through this stubborn, barren life of ours. I say stubborn because we are determined, as human beings, on being asses. We simply don’t care about anything. I say barren because that is our lives if it has no love in it. Love here doesn’t mean the love of the body, the love that leads to sex, no. I mean love of anything; love of food is considered one of the powers of love that steers life. We have drives in us that only get life through love, if you don’t love your parents you wouldn’t have cared for them and be afraid when they are upset of you. If you don’t love your existence, you wouldn’t have tried staying alive and fighting death around the corners.

Just in order to make a long story short, love exists and it’s not pathetic. It just can’t be pathetic because it would be pathetic if love is pathetic. Yes, not acknowledging that love exists is a pathetic act indeed. It shows how weak you are, how helpless you are, how broken and how suffocated you are. It shows how barren you are and how stoned you are. It shows your inability of acknowledging that you love to live. There is love in the world. Not necessarily the bodily love, but the spiritual one is there, it is always there. Your love for your body is one kind of love. Your love for your existence, your life is one kind of love. Your love for your parents, your home, your house, your money, your car, your sexuality, your cellular, your phone number, your smile, your hair, your eyes, even loving a certain kind of food is one kind of love. Love exists in all ways, forms and means. Your love for the sky and the stars is love. Loving nature is one kind of feeling love. All these forms of love come from one place; your heart. As long as the heart is beating this means that you love something. It doesn’t matter what it is that you love, what matters is that you feel love and you share it in your own way.

Love is existence, love is life, love makes you unforgettable. So love love, love life :D